Thursday, February 12, 2009

So, how does it feel to be THAT old and unmarried?

How do you answer a question like that? I didn't really know what to say when a friend posed this question to me the other day. I mean, on a day-to-day basis it doesn't feel like anything. It's not like I wake up in the morning thinking, man, I am still single! I pretty much go about daily life with little thought to my relationship status (or lack thereof). There are days, however, when I think back to my childhood and my general expectations at that time. I distinctly remember how I felt one day 20 years ago upon finding out my choir director's age. My first thought was, wow! she is too old to still not be married! She at least had a boyfriend at the time, so it was only a matter of time before that would change. Of course, the paradigm from which I was working was based on all I had ever known... all the women in my family got married young. I thought that was they way it was supposed to go. So, now that I have grown up and reached an age that no other woman in my family has managed to attain while still single, my perspective has changed a bit. I don't mind that I am still unmarried. But I do not like the idea of little kids looking at me and thinking what I thought of my choir director so many years ago. I just don't want to be thought of as old. What can I say? I can be a little vain at times... =/

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