Some Desires are Better Left Unmet

While walking along, I could not help but notice the abundance of couples. The were everywhere I turned... under snow-covered branches...

under umbrellas...

walking their dogs...

yeah... just about everywhere. It made me kinda miss a certain person and wish he were out there with me, enjoying this winter wonderland - that is until I noticed a lady with her crazy uncontrollable dog. I thought to myself, "that does NOT look like fun. If I had a dog like that, I'm not sure I would take him for walks." That got me thinking about how we all look at the good things and want them (like lady probably saw people walking their well-behaved dog and decided she wanted one), but sometimes reality doesn't turn out like that. Not that I am comparing that certain someone to a dog, but I know that if he were actually there with me, it would not be like the cute couples I saw around me. I would probably be running for my life, dodging snowballs, or trying not get pushed into the nearest snow drift. I would be like the lady with the crazy dog wondering why I thought that was a good idea. Such is life for some of us. =P

They call it "the Blizzard of 2010," but I call it...

BEAUTIFUL!!!

After we cleared the walkway and dug out the cars (not that we will be taking them anywhere soon!), I decided to go for a walk around the neighborhood and see how the snow had transformed this already adorable town.

Old Town was seriously made for snow. All the quaint light-posts and old fashioned store fronts just looked like something straight out of a Christmas card.

There were a lot of people out on King St. I was a little surprised, but I guess they were all as tired of being cooped up as I was. There were people cross-country skiing, dog walkers out with their canine companions, families, towing little ones behind on sleds, couples holding gloved hands, enjoying the glittering ambience of whiteness that had descended overnight. Everyone was in a good mood, myself included. Despite my self-proclaimed hatred of the cold, I could not help but be mesmerized by the beauty surrounding me. Simply too beautiful for words.

This one cracked me up! Someone went to a LOT of work to dig out this Mini Cooper... I'm not sure why, though, because it is not like it is gonna go ANYWHERE on roads like this! =P

Once again, the beauty of the snow on the branches above me left me completely and utter speechless (quite the fete!)

When it Rains it Pours!

Or so they say... I guess today, it is more like "when it snows, it blizzards." In any case, I am using the term metaphorically as it was intended.

Unemployment has lasted much longer than I ever expected. I have entered my seventh month of sloth and lack of income. Some days are harder than others, but the Lord always provides. Until the last 2 weeks, the entire time of job searching was as unrewarding as it could possibly be - not a single phone call or email response, no less an interview for all the hundreds of resumes I submitted! Silence. The cold shoulder. I felt very unwanted. But those days are now over. I have had one interview, have another one next week, and am waiting for a job offer on a third one. Now, the problem is, which one do I accept if I am offered more than one? They each have their own advantages and disadvantages. One would keep me here - the least exciting and most comfortable. One would have me on the road (or in the air) all the time - I would have no life outside of work and my hours would be completely unpredictable. The third would send me to Iraq for a year - it's a contract position, so no job security once the year is up, and seeing as it is in a war zone, the most dangerous of the three. The third is obviously the most appealing to me for many reasons, but I can't help but wonder if it is fair to do this to my family again? I have put them through so much already. I know it is hard for my Mom when I am that far away... she worries (a normal Mom response, considering the circumstances). I just don't know... Is it a selfish choice?

This may all be jumping the gun seeing as I have not actually been offered any of the aforementioned positions, but these are the thoughts currently running through my brain.

Happy Birthday, Norman Rockwell! =)

Is it ok?

Is it ok to not be happy for a friend who may just have found the man of her dreams?

Is it ok to not rejoice with a former classmate who just got engaged?

Is it ok to feel less than thrilled at receiving another invitation to an engagement party, wedding shower, or baby shower?

Is it ok to want to scream when another married person walks up to you and tells you "God has the perfect man for you"?

Is it ever ok to wonder "why them and not me?"

just wondering...